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$xhtml = array(
	'<{title}>' => 'Progress',
	'takedown' => '2017-11-01',
	'<{body}>' => <<<END
<img src="/img/CC_BY-SA_4.0/y.st./weblog/2019/04/29.jpg" alt="Fire engine" class="framed-centred-image" width="800" height="480"/>
<section id="prayer">
	<h2>Prayer impressions log</h2>
	<p>
		I prayed that I&apos;d be reading the tenth chapter of Genesis.
		I said that I should be exited for the interesting things I was about to read, but that I wasn&apos;t feeling it after having to let my workmate down like I did yesterday.
		But I also said that in any case, I was ready to see what I&apos;d learn.
	</p>
	<p>
		I prayed that this chapter was a good one to have me read today.
		Pretty much nothing happened in it.
		It was just a listing of who was related to who.
		There wasn&apos;t really anything for me to miss while I&apos;m distracted by thoughts of my workmate.
		After praying, I sawn in my mind a hand unwinding the last of some brown thread from a thin, silver spool.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="drudgery">
	<h2>Drudgery</h2>
	<p>
		My discussion post for the day:
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			I don&apos;t think your solution of checking to see if both forks are available before trying to get either one works.
			It encounters the same deadlock as the initial, broken solution.
			If all the philosophers are hungry at the same time, they&apos;ll all check the forks at the same time.
			Then they&apos;ll all grab the left fork at the same time, and wait forever for the right fork, which will never be freed.
			Perhaps randomly deciding to put a fork back sometimes when they can&apos;t get the second fork would work (it has to be random (or use some other method besides simply put the fork back every time); if it&apos;s not random, they&apos;ll all put their forks back, and repeat the process of all trying to grab the forks again), but a simple check before grabbing the forks isn&apos;t going to work.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
</section>
<section id="admission">
	<h2>The first step is admission.</h2>
	<p>
		My workmate&apos;s solution to the gender issue was to just refer to me by my name.
		No pronouns.
		Ever.
		It sounds like they might have already been doing that for about four months too, I just didn&apos;t notice.
		Again, I notice what people call me, not what they don&apos;t, so if you don&apos;t call me anything, it&apos;s going to feel like a continuation of what you called me last.
	</p>
	<p>
		I tried to explain the problem, and they didn&apos;t seem to get it.
		They figured that since they weren&apos;t calling me the wrong thing, they weren&apos;t doing anything wrong.
		And technically, that&apos;s true.
		But they also weren&apos;t calling me the right thing.
		They weren&apos;t doing the right thing.
		I went over a bunch of analogies in my head.
		They each seemed judgemental in some way.
		I couldn&apos;t use them.
		But then I found the perfect one: it&apos;s like you&apos;re on a game show.
		The host asks you a question.
		You say nothing.
		You didn&apos;t answer incorrectly, but you also didn&apos;t answer correctly.
		I didn&apos;t say it, but the implied question there is whether you win the prize.
		Obviously, you don&apos;t.
		Not hitting the wrong answer isn&apos;t the same thing as getting the answer right.
		I hoped that would be enough to make it clear.
	</p>
	<p>
		Thankfully, it was.
		They even came back a bit later with an even better way to phrase it.
		They said there was admittedly an avoidance issue.
		Yes.
		Thank you.
		They&apos;d found the word I&apos;d failed to find myself.
		They blamed their upbringing.
		They weren&apos;t raised to believe in something besides the binary.
		I blame society.
		Almost none of us are raised to understand that there&apos;s more than just the binary.
		It&apos;s a big part of why I didn&apos;t understand what I was for so long.
		I simply don&apos;t fit into either of the only two boxes I was raised to believe in.
		Admission is the first step though.
		I might actually make progress with them.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="diet">
	
	<p>
		I had another one of those sandwiches like yesterday, but without the pickle this time.
		I also had a large carrot.
		I ate more pretzels and mixed juice than I probably should have had, but vastly less than I used to normally have.
		I&apos;d drink the full pitcher in one to two days, but it&apos;s still mostly full even after having some both yesterday and today.
		I had 498 grams of pretzels and 880 grams of mixed juice.
	</p>
</section>
END
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